Current mood:	worried
Current music:	I Hope You Die

27 Without [Him]... =(

"I need to justify the reasons for the way I'm livin'.."

Haven't seen or spoken to Dylan for 27 hours. I'm just.. Blah. I told Robb I feel like him without his hat. Because.. Robb isn't Robb without that thing... I feel.. So incredibly... I don't know the word. But it's not good. I've been writing him 2-3 page notes [front and back] since he got grounded. Crazy, I know. He wanted me to, and it's not like I have much else to do anyway.. And! If it snows tomorrow.. I won't see or talk to him 'til Monday after school. Good mood? Definitely not.

Today.. Was boring as shit. I had nothing to look forward to, got a D on a chem test, haha.. And probably will get the same thing on the one I'll be taking tomorrow. Oh! And a Spanish history quiz.. Not cool. Oh well, I guess.

Colton and I had fun Wednesday after school with some stuff I had left over. Yay! And! Colton can not make good rum in Coke mixes.. Lol.

I met a cool kid today though! At lunch, it was just a few of us, and this Brian guy that Manda talks about a lot came and sat down with us. We were talking about some really funny shit. It was the only time today that I had a good time. Pretty sad. Half an hour of smiling, when the rest was all.. Completely the opposite. I miss Dylan. But yeah.. Brian didn't come off as a stoner, but he definitely proved me wrong. And! He has the same opinions on some people as I do. Pretty cool.

Though, I am.. Pretty much just finished with people. It's really annoying.. Finding all these people that you think you can trust, and then when it really comes down to it, you can't. And it seems the only way to find out the truth is to go through something wretched. [Some of you know what I'm talking about]

Bastards.

"I hope your cellmate thinks he's God,
But C.N.N. refer to him as 'Bowling Ball Bag Bob',
Serving time again for abuse of a corpse,
Only this time the victim's a Clydesdale horse,
While he masturbates to photos of livestock,
He does the 'Silence of the Lambs' dance to Christian Rock,
Eats feces and quotes from 'Deliverance',
And fights with his imaginary playmate Vince,
...Die Die Die Die Die Die Die!,
...Die Die Die Die Die Die Die!,
I hope he grins like Jack Nicholson,
And forces you to play a game called Balls On Chin,
And whatever happens next is all a blur,
But you remember 'fist' can be a verb,
And when you finally regain consciousness,
You're bound and gagged in a wedding dress,
And the prison guard looks the other way,
'Cause he's the guy ya flipped the bird the other day,
I hope this helps to emphasize,
I hope this helps to clarify,
I hope you die"

Good song everyone.. Good song. Bravo to Jimmy Pop <3 He's my idol!

And I miss Dylan.