Current mood:	loved
Current music:	Howard Hughes

Hm..

"Here's a stack of tissues for each hand.."

Yesterday was Samhain. Lovely day, I'll admit..

Weather was nice.. Sarah and I dressed up as emo kids. Funny stuff.

We stayed after, and that was alright. I was the only one who didn't get intoxicated, 'cept Dunsmore, but I left him at Pizza Express and walked back to the dugout on my own. I did a lot of lonely walking, which was good, because I got to think about some things, and let out frustrations. So, that was good.

I finally cheered up.. A lot, actually.. When Dylan got there. Everyone left Sarah and I at the dugout, but then Dylan called and said he was leaving soon, so we were going to walk to Saylor's, but I just went to Pizza Express.. Saw Tiff, and Alissa.. Gave Dunsmore his stuff, and sat at the bank across the street, 'til I saw the stupid on on a skateboard and yelled for him. Hehe [Yeah, talking about Dylan] Then called Sarah and everyone came up.. We hung out there for a while, and I took off my shoes.. Then we walked to the cemetary, and Dylan and I.. Had a talk.. About not seeing eachother.

I'm really glad we talked about it, but I wasn't necessarily happy about the way it turned out, you know? It's not like we're fighting about it, but it was a little harder to talk about than I thought.. But, yeah.. It helped, a lot just to see him. But, he had to go, so I walked with him to the shop, then went to Saylor's [still without shoes.. hah]

On the way there, I realized that him and I were both worrying about the other saying they didn't want to have this relationship anymore.. And.. I put it together that it's actually a good thing we were worrying, because that means neither of us want to let go. And that made me smile. In a way. I'm sure someone gets it.

Sarah's mom's friend brought us home, which was cool. She was fun to talk to, glad to have met her. But, once I got here, I got online and talked to Dylan more, always good. The conversation made me smile. And made it easier to sleep..

Today was good too, because I was still happy about being able to see and talk to him. School was kind of a drag though, but I was comfortable. Got to see Dylan again, and he called me a few minutes after I got home.. My parents haven't said much to me, but I'm trying to make conversation..

Dylan;; I love you.. I think things are looking up =)